Philosophy 1: blah..

Lately, I've experienced a myriad of emotions.. From utter confusion to downright depression. Not to forget the flashes of overconfidence. One moment I am analysing why it is so easy to give up. And the very next moment, I start wondering why it is so hard to not give up. Everything up here *points to his head* is in a mess. Somehow something doesnt feel right.

Throughout my life I've given up on many things. I've made compromises.. what they refer to as "settling for the second best". Compromised on my dreams. Aspirations. Ideals. Somehow it never made sense to me to give my best if I cant be the best. You work hard, give it your best shot only to realise that you missed out by an inch. Or sometimes for the worse, lesser. I was never gifted with this risk taking ability. I was always ready to settle for a compromise. It is so much more easier. Of course, this way you live a peaceful existence because you dont need to try hard and you are relieved that you've given up. A huge burden is off your shoulders. Why? Not because the fear of failure is banished.. its because the pressure to succeed is non-existent. Its a great feeling initially. I dont know how many of you have actually experienced it.

But then after some days, life becomes a drab. You just would be leading an aimless existence. As you wake up every morning, there's nothing exciting to look forward to. You want a goal.. to keep you motivated. And the taste of success after having fought against all odds.. just awesome :D Triumphing as an underdog.. when nobody expects a thing from you.. it is the greatest feeling on earth. And then you want to succeed each and every time you try. You either dont want to fail or dont want to try. This another-highly-haphazard post is going nowhere..

BTW my CAT application has been accepted.

Quote of the day:

As long as I have a want, I have a reason for living. Satisfaction is death.

George Bernard Shaw

PS1: I got kicked :(( And Raja acted like a wimp. He chickened out whereas my calm demeanour took everyone by surprise :D But at the end of the day, I got to keep my honour and he got to keep his butt. GVK.. I'm gonna get you.
PS2: The hot water springs of New Zealand and the geysers of OBH, 1st floor are very famous for their continuous supply of hot water. Say, you want to wash your feet at 3:00 AM and for some reason you want to use lukewarm water (coz its friggin cold!) Geyser? Switched off.. aah.. Let the taps open.. and then out come fumes like the ones in the mad scientist-frankenstein type movies.. And then.. You start jumping around showing off your latest tap dance moves a la Tom in Tom 'n Jerry.
PS3: Lost in carrom and TT. But put up a very good fight. Especially the TT quarterfinals match.. it was the best match I've ever played although I ended up on the losing side. What I lacked in talent, I made up in strategy :D
PS4: Those who dont like philosophy, please skip the initial parts :D :P This might be a series of never-ending philosophical posts :-s My apologies for those who find it torturous.